His Presence

I have always known that the trials in our life are meant to draw us closer to the Source of Life - to God Almighty.

But I never truly experienced this truth until recently.

I am discovering that the pain I am going through now has a purpose. I am not an accident, and neither is life meaningless. Everything in this life has meaning and a purpose behind it. I can rejoice in this knowledge, and rest in the peace that comes from trusting that God is in control. I know this sounds a bit cliche, but it is the truth.

The Lord has been awakening my heart. He has been drawing me near to Him ever since I let go and surrendered. Ever since I realized that I can't possibly do this alone.

When the unexpected happens, and you find yourself desperate for something, or Someone to be your hope, to be that anchor that you need, He is there. He is always there.

Some days, I feel myself beginning to panic, as I think of all the worst possible scenarios that can occur as a result of the dark and confusing time I am in. But then, a Scripture comes to mind as the Lord reminds me of His presence. And then my breathing returns to normal. He is there.

Because truthfully, no matter what happens, God is constant. He will never leave me, and He will never stop loving me. Reminding myself of His promises does wonders to calm my aching heart and to banish the anxiety that would otherwise eat me alive if He wasn't there to hold me up.

"I am restless, until I rest in You."

-Audrey Assad, in her song Restless